lama tak menulis..hmm..where should I begin...?? start thinking and every time my brain start to search for something..always the first word appeared in my mind--WHY--
Why Allah choose me to go through all the ujian?? few months passed already..and what i learn just a journey with sorrow, regret and all the bad feeling like dancing in my mind...knowing true colors of people around you..facing failure of things which you want so much and how you wish it to be true, the one that you have put all the effort, went through everything even its hurt, then the 'news' was like thunder to you heart..and yet facing spontaneous reaction from your close one which hurt you a lot!! ..Allahuakbar!!! Kau berikanlah kekuatan dan ketenangan hati pada hamba-Mu ini..
to regret all the decisions i've made? NO!!! Ini ketentuan Ilahi..Than my brain start to analyze the answer..Allah tak akan uji hamba-Nya kalau hamba-Nya tak mampu menghadapi dugaan.. time for me to think further..if i regret, what can i do? i cannot reverse back the time..berusaha untuk memperbaiki keadaan..how? be a better person..
